Nearing 50 – and a new me

Nearing 50 and not liking me…..

the 80s

I was a size 0 when I was in high school and I liked my small frame, now at the age of 48 I worry about my larger size and my health.   I remember my brother used tease me when I was young, “If you turn sideways you’ll disappear,”  I was ok with that, so why now does it bother me when people say, “oh you’ve lost weight you look good.”  I guess back in those days I knew I didn’t have the weight to lose so when people say it now I feel like they see me as a person that needs to lose some lbs.

My first job out of high school was at a company called A.B. Chance Co of Canada, located in Scarborough.  One day on my way to work it happened and this would start the change in my life.  My lung collapsed, sounds simple enough go to the hospital take care of it and get on with your life.

1990

So why do I bring up my breathing issues when I am talking about my weight gain?  my breathing issues were also the introduction of steroids to my daily life (and weight gain).  From pills, nasal sprays, inhalers and more this became a regular part of my life during asthma attacks.  Through the really bad episodes it was found that only regular high doses of prednisone would bring me back, I hate the prednisone!!  One of my drs once said, “it’s the lesser evil of your choices” , and I sadly agree.

2006 to 2014

I summarize my journey here for sake of time but this has been a 25 year journey, specialist after specialist, test after test and still no diagnoses. One Dr says, “exercise!!!” another will say, “take it easy”.  I’ve had regular visits for months on end to St. Michael’s hospital and therapy sessions that still left me undiagnosed and some weeks, fighting for my life.

Then in 2005 I was pregnant with my first child, through constant breathing problems and inhalers and then gestational diabetes I put on more weight and that started me on more of a down spiral to how I felt about me.  In 2008 I had my second child and again had gestational diabetes and more breathing issues. (although I would not change it for anything as I was blessed with two beautiful babies).

My children are 6 and 8 now and I don’t like them to hear how I feel about me, I try to keep body image as a positive one but honestly sometimes this is hard.  “mommy you need a new bathing suits.”  EEEEKKK!!! I DO NOT want to go bathing suite shopping but I also don’t want to tell them why.  Truth is I very rarely go cloths shopping at all. A few years ago my husband and I went on a vacation on a cruise and my biggest fear was the pool and having to put on the dreaded bathing suite. I never ended up in the pool on the ship.

2015

I am also the community producer and co-host of a show called mommy talk on Rogers TV Georgina.  On taping nights everything in my closet comes out to see what I can put on that will hide my body figure especially when I sit on that red sofa.  When I watch the show I am proud of the content and the amazing show we’ve created but I cringe when I see my rolls on TV.

mommy talk team

So here I am with 50 creeping up in a few years and every winter I say I’ll lose weight in the summer when I feel better.  Then the summer hits, if flies by and aside from swimming in our pool I miss out on my weight loss goals, then my health issues kicks in again and its a big fail.

My new favourite show is Dr. Oz, I watch it every day for tips, how to live a healthy lifestyle, and great recipes, even my daughter loves this show now. I have always been a healthy eater but still needed improvement and Dr. Oz has helped me since I need to keep my energy up, always been a tough one for me, and lose weight.

This year on May 9th I will be doing a 5k walk for the Recovery Cancer Foundation and this I am hoping will motivate me to continue my journey through the summer months and beyond.

I have also ordered some products from the Jeunesse line I sell as an independent distributor.  I am going to keep my journey on my blog so that you to can follow my travels, keep me motivated and maybe I can even help you with yours.

Amanda’s Wish – A trip to Disney World

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Kim and Amanda

6 years ago I got a call from a lady that wanted to buy my bumbo seat that I had for sale on a local facebook buy and sell page, we’ve been friends ever since.

Our boys were close in age and we started having play days together.  When I decided to open momstown GEG in 2009 it was Amanda by my side.  As momstown grew she continued to support my chapter joining at events and recruiting moms along the way.

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momstown GEG 2009

They decided to moved a little further out of town and we spent more time on facebook then in person but our friendship was still solid and we knew we could depend on each other.  When I closed my momstown chapter earlier this year Amanda made the trip, although not feeling great, she joined in to support me at the momstown GEG good-bye party.

She is a young mom and after many tests was diagnosed with breast cancer; her battle has been a fierce one but her strength has amazed all of us around her.

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Here is a little bit about Amanda’s journey:

Amanda is a dedicated wonderful young mother of two gorgeous kids Amanda (Mandy) Dufour. Amanda at the young age of 32 was diagnosed with breast cancer.

 Her Journey began in June 2013 when she started feeling something strange on her left breast. After few weeks of checkups and misdiagnosis; she finally got diagnosed with a very aggressive type of breast cancer.  

 After numerous scans from head to toe; she found out that her cancer had spread. She is now stage IV. It is now on her spine, lymph nodes, underarm, and back of her neck.

Obviously this news were not what she wanted to hear. She is a devoted mother of two precious angels and a wife of a hardworking man.  

 Her diagnosis brought many tears, many questions; what would their children do without their mommy? Why so young?  

After a week of crying over it; something snapped! Amanda decided to FIGHT tooth and nail and stop feeling sorry for herself. She started her chemo dose. Her hair was falling out and her skin got dry. As the time went on, she started filling more ill; but she kept pushing.  

 Amanda is a fighter. She is determined to do whatever it takes to be with her kids. Leaving her kids is not an option. They NEED her. She has been an inspiration to many people around her. Her battle is a hard one but she chose to fight.

 She only has one wish; she wants to spend as much time as possible with her kids and husband. Her dream is to go on a family vacation to Disney World before she gets to ill to travel.  

Lets raise awareness that breast cancer can happen at any age; and also to come together as a community and help Amanda’s wish come true. Let’s send the Dufour Family to a well-deserved Disney World Vacation.


Amanda’s wish is to take her family to Disney World while she can still travel and If I could wave my magic wand and grant her this wish I would.  With your support I hope that we can help her grant her wish.

I wish I could grant her the wish of health but I can’t so this is the next best thing I can do to help.  One day when I take my own kids I want to be able to smile walking through Disney World thinking about the great memories Amanda was able to make when she took her kids thanks to the help of friends, family and her community.

You can donate directly by clicking HERE.

Any funds above the money needed for her will be donated to Gildas Club of Barrie.

Or you can contact me at abcplusk@gmail.com

Lets show Amanda’s Family that dreams can come true.